There are so many blog posts I want to write. I want to tell you about our holiday, about the fun things we’ve done. I want to share some of the great pictures I’ve taken. I’ve also got a number of products I want to review, reviews I’ve said I’ll write before the end of the month. But I can’t. I can’t write any of that, because there is one great, big, huge thing going on in my life that is overshadowing everything else.
We’re having sleep issues with the geekdaughter. And when I say sleep issues, I mean MAJOR sleep issues. I mean her father and her screaming at each other at the top of their voices at 3am kind of sleep issues. I mean her being in our bedroom for two hours another (early) morning whilst we just ignored her because we’d run out of things to try to help her to sleep. I mean my holding her bedroom door shut whilst she rants and raves behind it.
We haven’t had an uninterrupted nights sleep for three weeks. We feel like we’ve tried everything. We’ve got a sticker chart set up, and she gets a sticker each time she goes through the night without waking us up. There are two stickers on it, and it’s been in place for two weeks. We’ve tried being nice and supportive. We’ve tried being mean, we’ve tried ignoring her. We still can’t work out if there’s a genuine issue or if she’s just playing up. We can’t work out what’s triggered it. She had started saying she didn’t like bedtime before we went away on holiday, but when we got back it became full scale war. She tells us she’s scared of nightmares, or she just doesn’t want to be alone, or she’s scared of the dark, or she’s getting growing pains. At the end of the day she’s only 5, if there is a genuine problem perhaps she just can’t articulate it.
All I know is that the last couple of nights the only way we have managed to get her to stay in bed is by getting really really angry and nasty with her. We’re absolutely at breaking point, and have no idea what to try next. The geekdaddy and I are on tentahooks for the whole evening, dreading the next big fight, or being woken up in the early hours. I’m worried about the geekdaddy’s blood pressure, which is mounting on a nightly basis. I’m worried that if there is a genuine problem we are just making things worse by being mean to her. The more this goes on, the less sleep we’re all getting, and the less equipped we all are to cope with it.
Thank you to those who already knew that this was going on, and have offered support in any way. I am especially grateful to the lovely Fi over at Childcare is Fun for interrupting her holiday to reply to despairing emails and DMs from me. My current hope is that we can all find some way to get through the next few nights, and that things will get better when the geekdaughter is back at school.
Until then, things might be a little quieter around here, as I am struggling to motivate myself to blog about anything else at the moment. Probably something to do with the sleep deprivation…